Philip K. Chesterton sat in his favorite pub, pulling contemplatively on a pint of ale. His long-time companion in this pastime and (several times removed) cousin Ralph Chesterton sat with him at the bar, sipping on a Bud Light. The pub itself was endeavoring to appear dark and oaken and at least vaguely British, generally only succeeding in the dark element of the illusion.
"You ought to at least try a real beer." mumbled Philip. "That crap is made of rice. Light beer is generally offensive on so many levels I can't even begin my usual tirade. This amber ale I am drinking has body, is full in flavor, and has a malty finish."
"You always pick on my choice of beers whenever you get bitchy after that writer's meeting you go to." Ralph said. "Why do you even keep trying at that word slinging? What kind of literary bur did they put under your saddle this time?"
"I have to write a story about cabbages." replied Philip. "Lowly cabbages. It's like trying to rhyme something with the word 'orange.'" Philip waved two fingers at the bartender, who promptly delivered two pints and collected far too much money for them. The pseudo-intellectual pub atmosphere barely made the inflated prices of tapped beer worthwhile to the aspiring word-smith.
Ralph stared blankly into space for a time, then shook his head, finished his pint and started in on the new one. "Orange. Hmph."
"Lewis Carroll commented on cabbages, briefly." said Philip. "'Let us talk of other things.' You know. Cabbages and kings." Ralph grunted, so Philip went on. "Kings, of course, are the pinnacle of social order. Cabbages are common and not much thought of. The phrase refers to a broad range of topics for conversation."
"We're in a bar." said Ralph. "We should be talking about women, sports, guns and beer. At least talk about hops and barley."
"Your beer is mostly rice." said Philip. "That being said, I am quite fond of all of those subjects. However, it is on cabbages I must think."
"Is there any liquor made from cabbages?" asked Ralph.
"Not that I know of." Philip replied. "I remember something in a role playing game, but that may have just been made up stuff."
"You are a geek." said Ralph. "You may even be gay. Does your wife know you are gay? Why do I even hang out with you?"
"Because I pay for your poor excuse for a beer."
"Oh, yeah. Thanks."
Philip took a sip from his amber ale, relishing it's complexity and the lack of rice in the making of the lovely brew. Ralph threw back the second half of his pint of Bud Light, relishing the beer buzz and the fact that it was truly less filling.
"I recall something by Alton Brown on cabbage." Philip said. "You know, the food science guy. Humans have been eating this plant in one form of another for centuries. It has been cultivated, bred, and made better over thousands of years, yet is common enough to be the symbol of commonality."
Philip noticed that Ralph had killed his pint, and ordered two more.
"Cooked properly, it is tasty and extremely nutritious. Cooked poorly and the stink reeks of functional poverty and lousy culinary skills." Philip continued. "It is sometimes fermented or pickled for preservation. Recipes for such forms are common in a vast number of cultures."
Ralph stared into his beer, not even being sure where polite grunts were appropriate. Suddenly, he lit up with a rare idea.
"Hey, Phil. You can write a story of somebody talking about cabbages. That way you could get your story done, and then we could talk about something interesting. You know, like that hot cousin of ours that is so far removed that the cousin thing doesn't matter. I think she is even legal, by now."
"You mean like that Short Story Guy on the Internet does when he gets stuck?" said Philip. "That would be just lame. I'll think about it, though, just the same. Now, which cousin are we talking about?"
Ralph regaled him with his lustful description of the barely legal and hardly related vision, while Philip sipped on his ale and contemplated the impact of inbreeding in isolated populations on human evolution. With enough time, it seemed to him, cabbages could be kings.
Slowly, a story formed in his fertile mind.
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Thursday, October 21, 2010
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
The Next Level-
I have been long thinking on how to turn writing into more than a hobby. I would like to get at least some of my income from writing. I have studied a bit about copywriting, a lucrative field preparing copy for advertisements and promotions, as well as writing letters and such for those who need a writer's skill. It is not the creative writing I prefer, but it is an avenue I might follow in the coming years.
More in line with my real interests I have written a novel, and begun a sequel. However, I have not yet gotten my novel published. Having studied the processes of getting published I have decided to go with a print on demand program through Amazon. This form of publication will leave promotion of my book in my hands, and so it will probably not make a huge splash in the realm of adventure fantasy fiction. Still, it will be out there.
How to market my short story writing? I was inspired by my sister Donni to use Craigslist as a tool for beginning my short story project. She promoted her private pre-school using Craigslist, and the results have been far greater than I imagined. So, I have begun to offer short stories over Craigslist.
My purpose is to create short stories for people to present as gifts or commemorations to family, friends and colleagues. Other purposes will come to mind over time, and I can create tiny tales for whatever purpose my client might have.
I have established a separate Google mailing address from which to manage the project, and a PayPal account as a means of receiving payment. Once some revenue is generated I can apply it to getting my novel out into the marketplace, and once that is underway I can reinvest the income to build my writing into a business.
This project will be very low budget, and only time will tell just where it will go.
shortstoryguy@gmail.com
That is the contact address. If you or anyone you know has need of a unique gift, write me at that address.
Meanwhile, the tales I tell here remain free. Invite your friends and neighbors to stop by and visit. Leave a comment, from time to time. Writers love readers, and its nice to know someone is reading.
More in line with my real interests I have written a novel, and begun a sequel. However, I have not yet gotten my novel published. Having studied the processes of getting published I have decided to go with a print on demand program through Amazon. This form of publication will leave promotion of my book in my hands, and so it will probably not make a huge splash in the realm of adventure fantasy fiction. Still, it will be out there.
How to market my short story writing? I was inspired by my sister Donni to use Craigslist as a tool for beginning my short story project. She promoted her private pre-school using Craigslist, and the results have been far greater than I imagined. So, I have begun to offer short stories over Craigslist.
My purpose is to create short stories for people to present as gifts or commemorations to family, friends and colleagues. Other purposes will come to mind over time, and I can create tiny tales for whatever purpose my client might have.
I have established a separate Google mailing address from which to manage the project, and a PayPal account as a means of receiving payment. Once some revenue is generated I can apply it to getting my novel out into the marketplace, and once that is underway I can reinvest the income to build my writing into a business.
This project will be very low budget, and only time will tell just where it will go.
shortstoryguy@gmail.com
That is the contact address. If you or anyone you know has need of a unique gift, write me at that address.
Meanwhile, the tales I tell here remain free. Invite your friends and neighbors to stop by and visit. Leave a comment, from time to time. Writers love readers, and its nice to know someone is reading.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Wordsmith-
Poet, Warrior,
Philosopher, Priest.
World Maker
Dream Hunter
Nightmare's Scribe
Weaver of Shadows,
Sculptor of Lights.
by Michael R. Lockridge
This was a poem I wrote some years ago to (at least in part) describe myself and my relationship to writing. I pulled out the Nightmare's Scribe to title one of my short stories. That story follows this entry. I thought I would put it up here to provide some context for the story.
That, and because I like it.
Philosopher, Priest.
World Maker
Dream Hunter
Nightmare's Scribe
Weaver of Shadows,
Sculptor of Lights.
by Michael R. Lockridge
This was a poem I wrote some years ago to (at least in part) describe myself and my relationship to writing. I pulled out the Nightmare's Scribe to title one of my short stories. That story follows this entry. I thought I would put it up here to provide some context for the story.
That, and because I like it.
Nightmare's Scribe-
Nightmare's Scribe
a short story by Michael R. Lockridge
Tyler Jenkins carried the hot tea pot with care. Once he was out on the front porch he placed it on the small dining table he kept there for evening meals on nice days. This was a particularly nice day. A few fluffy clouds in a deep blue sky, his nicely trimmed yard before him. Tyler sat down at the table and poured himself a cup of tea.
It was Oolong, one of his favorites. Tonight he had ordered Chinese. Tyler was savoring the aroma of his tea when the delivery van stopped at his curb. A young man got out and carried a white bag up to the porch steps. Tyler removed his wallet from his pants pocket and extracted the requisite number of bills to cover the cost of his dinner and a nice tip.
"Enjoy your meal, Mr. Jenkins." said the young man. "I am a big fan of your writing, Mr. Jenkins."
Tyler nodded in acknowledgment and began setting his dinner out on the porch table. The young man remained, which did not surprise Tyler. His horror novels had not become best sellers, but he was making a name for himself in the genre. The nominal fame he had acquired had not yet become troublesome, and he did not mind the moments of awkward adulation.
"Do you live here for inspiration?" asked the young man. He was looking past the house to the large fenced facility beyond. The small yard surrounding the house actually was encompassed by that fence on three sides. It was the only house on the same side of the street as the state mental institution at which the young man was gazing.
"In a manner of speaking." answered Tyler. He stood by his table and sipped at his tea. The food was still quite hot and he could afford a few minutes for this young fan.
"Kind of weird how this house is almost part of the nut house." said the delivery man. "I would think it would give you nightmares."
"It was in that hope that I bought it." said Tyler. "When the mental institution was being built the owner of this little Victorian gem would not sell. They had to build their fence around the place. It did keep the property value down, and I bought it from that owner's estate several years ago."
The delivery man nodded, and then turned and walked to his vehicle. "Enjoy your meal, Mr. Jenkins. I hope you have some wonderful nightmares!" He waved as he got into his vehicle and drove away.
Tyler did enjoy the meal. He gathered the empty boxes and the delivery bag and carried them to the trash can at the side of his house. He looked through the fence and watched as light after light went out in windows in the institution next door. It was almost time.
He picked up the tea pot and his cup from the porch table as he went into the house. He rinsed them and set them on the drying rack. He then went into the room at the back of the house that was nearest to the main institution building.
Tyler turned on his computer. While it went through the start up routines he selected several crystals from a large collection on the shelf behind his writing chair. This was done intuitively. Finding the right stone was a very subjective activity. One by one he touched the stones. Some he held for a moment. Some were rejected at the first touch. Tonight he found three that felt right.
He placed the crystals in a bag and hung the bag around his neck. Yes, they felt right! Tyler sat down in his writing chair and opened a document on the computer. Then he just sat and waited.
Soon the deep anguish of some poor soul in the institution touched Tyler deep in the heart of his being. He felt the tendrils of other hearts and minds touch him, and he welcomed them. Memories not his own, real or delusional, flooded him. One moment he was laughing, the next sobbing uncontrollably. Then he reached out with both hands and found the keyboard.
Tonight he wrote for three and one half hours. Then the waves of agony and ecstasy abated, fading to vague memories of memories. Tyler saved the document without reading any of it and shut down the machine. Tomorrow morning would be the time to read and edit. Tomorrow he would work the nightmares he had captured into stories to be shared with the world.
Tyler carefully put away his crystals.
It had been draining. Tyler went to the bathroom and took a shower. Soon he was ready for bed.
As he drifted off to sleep he wondered who might capture his own dreams.
"Who eats the sins of the sin eater?" he mumbled as sleep engulfed him. Vaguely he recognized that the answer might make a good story. Perhaps, but a story for another day.
Tyler slept soundly. He never heard the chorus of screams that arose from the institution next door whenever he went to sleep. For all he knew, his sleep was always dreamless.
His neighbors might be inclined to disagree.
a short story by Michael R. Lockridge
Tyler Jenkins carried the hot tea pot with care. Once he was out on the front porch he placed it on the small dining table he kept there for evening meals on nice days. This was a particularly nice day. A few fluffy clouds in a deep blue sky, his nicely trimmed yard before him. Tyler sat down at the table and poured himself a cup of tea.
It was Oolong, one of his favorites. Tonight he had ordered Chinese. Tyler was savoring the aroma of his tea when the delivery van stopped at his curb. A young man got out and carried a white bag up to the porch steps. Tyler removed his wallet from his pants pocket and extracted the requisite number of bills to cover the cost of his dinner and a nice tip.
"Enjoy your meal, Mr. Jenkins." said the young man. "I am a big fan of your writing, Mr. Jenkins."
Tyler nodded in acknowledgment and began setting his dinner out on the porch table. The young man remained, which did not surprise Tyler. His horror novels had not become best sellers, but he was making a name for himself in the genre. The nominal fame he had acquired had not yet become troublesome, and he did not mind the moments of awkward adulation.
"Do you live here for inspiration?" asked the young man. He was looking past the house to the large fenced facility beyond. The small yard surrounding the house actually was encompassed by that fence on three sides. It was the only house on the same side of the street as the state mental institution at which the young man was gazing.
"In a manner of speaking." answered Tyler. He stood by his table and sipped at his tea. The food was still quite hot and he could afford a few minutes for this young fan.
"Kind of weird how this house is almost part of the nut house." said the delivery man. "I would think it would give you nightmares."
"It was in that hope that I bought it." said Tyler. "When the mental institution was being built the owner of this little Victorian gem would not sell. They had to build their fence around the place. It did keep the property value down, and I bought it from that owner's estate several years ago."
The delivery man nodded, and then turned and walked to his vehicle. "Enjoy your meal, Mr. Jenkins. I hope you have some wonderful nightmares!" He waved as he got into his vehicle and drove away.
Tyler did enjoy the meal. He gathered the empty boxes and the delivery bag and carried them to the trash can at the side of his house. He looked through the fence and watched as light after light went out in windows in the institution next door. It was almost time.
He picked up the tea pot and his cup from the porch table as he went into the house. He rinsed them and set them on the drying rack. He then went into the room at the back of the house that was nearest to the main institution building.
Tyler turned on his computer. While it went through the start up routines he selected several crystals from a large collection on the shelf behind his writing chair. This was done intuitively. Finding the right stone was a very subjective activity. One by one he touched the stones. Some he held for a moment. Some were rejected at the first touch. Tonight he found three that felt right.
He placed the crystals in a bag and hung the bag around his neck. Yes, they felt right! Tyler sat down in his writing chair and opened a document on the computer. Then he just sat and waited.
Soon the deep anguish of some poor soul in the institution touched Tyler deep in the heart of his being. He felt the tendrils of other hearts and minds touch him, and he welcomed them. Memories not his own, real or delusional, flooded him. One moment he was laughing, the next sobbing uncontrollably. Then he reached out with both hands and found the keyboard.
Tonight he wrote for three and one half hours. Then the waves of agony and ecstasy abated, fading to vague memories of memories. Tyler saved the document without reading any of it and shut down the machine. Tomorrow morning would be the time to read and edit. Tomorrow he would work the nightmares he had captured into stories to be shared with the world.
Tyler carefully put away his crystals.
It had been draining. Tyler went to the bathroom and took a shower. Soon he was ready for bed.
As he drifted off to sleep he wondered who might capture his own dreams.
"Who eats the sins of the sin eater?" he mumbled as sleep engulfed him. Vaguely he recognized that the answer might make a good story. Perhaps, but a story for another day.
Tyler slept soundly. He never heard the chorus of screams that arose from the institution next door whenever he went to sleep. For all he knew, his sleep was always dreamless.
His neighbors might be inclined to disagree.
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Thursday, October 2, 2008
Networks and Beta Readers-
I recently read a book on getting a literary agent. It was a good book, well written and filled with the information I needed. The publication process is long, and the book helped to explain why that was the case.
Last night I finished my first edit of my first draft of Inn at the Edge of the World. It felt good to complete that part, even though I am far from done.
Apparently I should have a network of people who can help me with the next step. Beta readers. People who will read the raw text, and add their input.
I have been aware of networking for a long time. Networking for careers, and now networking for getting published. People serving as resources for one another in a given process.
I don't network well. I have little social drive, and this whole networking think is rather social. I just don't have the beta readers I would like to have.
This is awkward. The next step might be easier if I were studying writing in a school, with contacts and friends seeking publication. Unfortunately, I am pretty much alone in this.
Eventually I will find a way to get people to read the book, and comment and criticise. I will get to that rewrite, and be ready to seek representation by an agent.
Or, I could self-publish and learn my own marketing.
Meanwhile, I started the sequel. After all, editing and all of the other stuff is not writing.
Next up, Marcus and Ara. The tale of a growing relationship, filled with travel and adventure. Oh, and some steampunk. I just thought it would be fun.
Last night I finished my first edit of my first draft of Inn at the Edge of the World. It felt good to complete that part, even though I am far from done.
Apparently I should have a network of people who can help me with the next step. Beta readers. People who will read the raw text, and add their input.
I have been aware of networking for a long time. Networking for careers, and now networking for getting published. People serving as resources for one another in a given process.
I don't network well. I have little social drive, and this whole networking think is rather social. I just don't have the beta readers I would like to have.
This is awkward. The next step might be easier if I were studying writing in a school, with contacts and friends seeking publication. Unfortunately, I am pretty much alone in this.
Eventually I will find a way to get people to read the book, and comment and criticise. I will get to that rewrite, and be ready to seek representation by an agent.
Or, I could self-publish and learn my own marketing.
Meanwhile, I started the sequel. After all, editing and all of the other stuff is not writing.
Next up, Marcus and Ara. The tale of a growing relationship, filled with travel and adventure. Oh, and some steampunk. I just thought it would be fun.
Labels:
editing,
publication,
Reading,
self publishing,
writing
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Getting published-
I haven't written any short stories in awhile, due to investing my time in cleaning up my rough-draft novel.
Besides the task of polishing the story I have been exploring the best way to get the thing published. I have explored Lulu.com and the services provided by Amazon. I have looked at blogs on the subject of getting published, and checked web sites of those who offer to assist. I have also looked at web sites warning of the excesses of some who offer to assist writers in getting published.
I am currently researching how to get an agent. I face an uphill battle, since I am a first-time writer trying to get published at the age of 55. Still, I don't really see gaining the necessary skills to market a novel on my own. I may work on a project with the intent of self-publishing through print-on-demand resources, but this novel is not that project.
There is still much work to do in finishing and formatting my novel. I have a serviceable level of skill in word processing for writing reports and simple documents. I feel the need to gain a bit more skill in learning to manage and format a novel length text.
That, and ongoing research has limited my resources for writing the short stories I love. Oh, and the switch from working days to nights has been a bit taxing, as well. I am fairly well accustomed to the new hours, and hope to do better.
If all goes well I should publish a new little tale in a few days. For those of you who are checking in, thanks for sticking with me.
Besides the task of polishing the story I have been exploring the best way to get the thing published. I have explored Lulu.com and the services provided by Amazon. I have looked at blogs on the subject of getting published, and checked web sites of those who offer to assist. I have also looked at web sites warning of the excesses of some who offer to assist writers in getting published.
I am currently researching how to get an agent. I face an uphill battle, since I am a first-time writer trying to get published at the age of 55. Still, I don't really see gaining the necessary skills to market a novel on my own. I may work on a project with the intent of self-publishing through print-on-demand resources, but this novel is not that project.
There is still much work to do in finishing and formatting my novel. I have a serviceable level of skill in word processing for writing reports and simple documents. I feel the need to gain a bit more skill in learning to manage and format a novel length text.
That, and ongoing research has limited my resources for writing the short stories I love. Oh, and the switch from working days to nights has been a bit taxing, as well. I am fairly well accustomed to the new hours, and hope to do better.
If all goes well I should publish a new little tale in a few days. For those of you who are checking in, thanks for sticking with me.
Labels:
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publication,
short stories,
word processing,
writing
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Word Processing-
I have finished red-lining my rough draft for my novel, Inn at the Edge of the World. I started making corrections and additions last night. As I did so, I realized that I have not actually mastered my word processor. It does not help that I go from Word at work to Word Perfect at home.
If I do go with a self-publishing service or the print-on-demand services with Amazon, I will need to learn how to format my work for publication. I could pay for the formatting and other services, but I feel that learning how to do the formatting myself will be valuable learning. It is more in line with my budget, as well.
First comes the rewrite and a more serious approach to learning the word processor. I suspect that formatting a novel for publication will be a bit more involved than anything else I have done in the area of word processing.
I have a lot to learn. That seems to always be the case.
If I do go with a self-publishing service or the print-on-demand services with Amazon, I will need to learn how to format my work for publication. I could pay for the formatting and other services, but I feel that learning how to do the formatting myself will be valuable learning. It is more in line with my budget, as well.
First comes the rewrite and a more serious approach to learning the word processor. I suspect that formatting a novel for publication will be a bit more involved than anything else I have done in the area of word processing.
I have a lot to learn. That seems to always be the case.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Reading as therapy-
My line of work has a degree of stress. Most do. I have been directly managing inmates for over eighteen years. This has understandably caused some damage to my mental faculties. Kind of a psychic bruising over time. Some days it is a massive struggle to overcome the depression.
I returned to writing as a tool to manage that depression. I still have some time to go before I can retire from this line of work, and I need every tool I can get to keep my mind sound through that time.
The other side of writing is reading. So, being a bit troubled by depression this morning I turned to reading. My current book has been One for the Money, by Janet Evanovich. Her writing is well paced, light hearted and often amusing. Not your usual approach to what has to be dropped into the Mystery genre. This is the first in her series of Stephanie Plum novels. The number in each title represents the number of the book in the series.
Her fourteenth is in the book store right now.
I have no idea if I can attain such a level of success. At this point, I have a finished (but not quite polished) novel. It was written as a way to manage depression, but I really would like to publish it. I am still exploring how to do that. It is not an easy business. Still, it was fun to write. It was an interesting experience.
Whatever I do with my book, there still remain thirteen of Evanovich's to read. Not bad therapy, all things considered.
I returned to writing as a tool to manage that depression. I still have some time to go before I can retire from this line of work, and I need every tool I can get to keep my mind sound through that time.
The other side of writing is reading. So, being a bit troubled by depression this morning I turned to reading. My current book has been One for the Money, by Janet Evanovich. Her writing is well paced, light hearted and often amusing. Not your usual approach to what has to be dropped into the Mystery genre. This is the first in her series of Stephanie Plum novels. The number in each title represents the number of the book in the series.
Her fourteenth is in the book store right now.
I have no idea if I can attain such a level of success. At this point, I have a finished (but not quite polished) novel. It was written as a way to manage depression, but I really would like to publish it. I am still exploring how to do that. It is not an easy business. Still, it was fun to write. It was an interesting experience.
Whatever I do with my book, there still remain thirteen of Evanovich's to read. Not bad therapy, all things considered.
Labels:
Janet Evanovich,
mystery,
Reading,
writing
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Steampunk and other trends-
I am still editing The Inn at the Edge of the World. Even so, my thoughts are often turning to the sequel, Marcus and Ara. Just as with the writing of the first book, this one is forming with little story bits that come to mind.
Often I write those bits in my mind. I play with them, shaping them and testing ideas. One element that has come to mind is a bit Steampunk. Now, I really like some of the things I have seen with the Steampunk movement. The best description is romance meets technology. I like the way the touch of Steampunk makes mechanical things interesting. It also has a fascinating fashion element.
Though a bit old for participation, I appreciated elements of the Goth movement. However, I found it a bit dark, too involved in aspects of life that reflected depression and defeat. The Lolita movement was an interesting twist, and though I found it fascinating, again it was nothing in which I felt compelled to participate.
Steampunk, however, is something I feel I can participate in. Not all out. I don't think I would be comfortable in Victorian garb most of the time, and I haven't the time or inclination to enter deeply into the mechanical elements of the movement. I do feel that I can bring elements of Steampunk into my life. I certainly can explore the movement in writing.
Steampunk seems to be a celebration of technology and creativity. The technology we live with is made warmer and compelling when dressed in Steampunk garb. The movement reflects the optimism that a new technological culture offered. Steam was king, and technology would bring prosperity to all.
Things didn't turn out that way, but the movement captures a creative nostalgia for a might-have-been culture. Steampunk lends itself to alternative history quite well. It is a looking back to a time that never was.
So, some day I may don a frock coat and some other garments that reflect the Steampunk theme. I do know that I will be writing a bit in the genre. I will continue to explore the culture, and enjoy my findings. Like the era Steampunk strives to reflect, we live on the cusp of a new age. I don't know that we are quite as optimistic. I don't know that we have reason to be.
Perhaps that is why we look to a past that never was.
Often I write those bits in my mind. I play with them, shaping them and testing ideas. One element that has come to mind is a bit Steampunk. Now, I really like some of the things I have seen with the Steampunk movement. The best description is romance meets technology. I like the way the touch of Steampunk makes mechanical things interesting. It also has a fascinating fashion element.
Though a bit old for participation, I appreciated elements of the Goth movement. However, I found it a bit dark, too involved in aspects of life that reflected depression and defeat. The Lolita movement was an interesting twist, and though I found it fascinating, again it was nothing in which I felt compelled to participate.
Steampunk, however, is something I feel I can participate in. Not all out. I don't think I would be comfortable in Victorian garb most of the time, and I haven't the time or inclination to enter deeply into the mechanical elements of the movement. I do feel that I can bring elements of Steampunk into my life. I certainly can explore the movement in writing.
Steampunk seems to be a celebration of technology and creativity. The technology we live with is made warmer and compelling when dressed in Steampunk garb. The movement reflects the optimism that a new technological culture offered. Steam was king, and technology would bring prosperity to all.
Things didn't turn out that way, but the movement captures a creative nostalgia for a might-have-been culture. Steampunk lends itself to alternative history quite well. It is a looking back to a time that never was.
So, some day I may don a frock coat and some other garments that reflect the Steampunk theme. I do know that I will be writing a bit in the genre. I will continue to explore the culture, and enjoy my findings. Like the era Steampunk strives to reflect, we live on the cusp of a new age. I don't know that we are quite as optimistic. I don't know that we have reason to be.
Perhaps that is why we look to a past that never was.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
My idea bag-
I only have a few more completed stories in my file. I have a few more in the idea bag, but they are not yet written. My idea for this blog was a good one, but writing a novel has consumed much of my writing energy.
Still, I think that this blog was a good idea. I have learned a bit about blogging, and about the Internet. Though I haven't developed much of a readership, it is a venue for people seeking my work to find some samples. It is also a challenge and an exercise.
So, I think I shall set myself the task of writing something at least twice a month just for this blog. I may take a couple of these stories to another level at some point, as well. I will chronicle that development in this blog.
My future project shall be a web site to begin developing and marketing my writing. I am more and more inclined toward self-publishing my book, The Inn at the Edge of the World, through a print-on-demand site. I will promote the book myself, developing the needed skills as I learn how to do this. In part that will be the purpose of my web site.
I will also seek to promote a custom short story business. These would be very short stories crafted as gifts and tributes to friends and family, produced for a small fee.
Along with that will be copywriting. This is not my first choice, but a few assignments (or taking someone's overflow work) won't be bad.
So, if you are one of the few readers I have, keep checking back. I will try and have something new for you on a regular basis.
Still, I think that this blog was a good idea. I have learned a bit about blogging, and about the Internet. Though I haven't developed much of a readership, it is a venue for people seeking my work to find some samples. It is also a challenge and an exercise.
So, I think I shall set myself the task of writing something at least twice a month just for this blog. I may take a couple of these stories to another level at some point, as well. I will chronicle that development in this blog.
My future project shall be a web site to begin developing and marketing my writing. I am more and more inclined toward self-publishing my book, The Inn at the Edge of the World, through a print-on-demand site. I will promote the book myself, developing the needed skills as I learn how to do this. In part that will be the purpose of my web site.
I will also seek to promote a custom short story business. These would be very short stories crafted as gifts and tributes to friends and family, produced for a small fee.
Along with that will be copywriting. This is not my first choice, but a few assignments (or taking someone's overflow work) won't be bad.
So, if you are one of the few readers I have, keep checking back. I will try and have something new for you on a regular basis.
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Friday, May 2, 2008
Solar mobility-
I just got to thinking on how wonderful a mobile lifestyle might be if the power source could be the sun. Solar power. I don't even know if such could be done. Enough power for each day, gathered from the sun that always shines. If today does not provide the power to move, perhaps tomorrow enough could be gathered.
The technology might already exist, but it would be costly to get it all together. So, I created a character to try the experiment. Wealthy enough, connected enough, and audacious enough to try and create a lifestyle that was practically free in every sense of the word.
Perhaps I will study the aquisition, storage and distribution of energy and see if this experiment is even viable. It sure was easy to do on virtual paper.
The technology might already exist, but it would be costly to get it all together. So, I created a character to try the experiment. Wealthy enough, connected enough, and audacious enough to try and create a lifestyle that was practically free in every sense of the word.
Perhaps I will study the aquisition, storage and distribution of energy and see if this experiment is even viable. It sure was easy to do on virtual paper.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Pornography and sex-
My short stories are often inspired by images. Something I see, or something I imagine. Sometimes, just a "what if..."
Skill grows by exercise, and reaching for new goals. I do not consider pornography a real stretch, but when a momentary observation led to a short story that cannot be classed as anything else, I wrote it down. It was an interesting experience. The exercise was real writing, and I sought to write a quality piece. I am pleased with the results.
I doubt that I will publish it. I certainly will not publish it here. I want to be able to share this site with anyone interested in my work.
I was interested, however, in just what introducing the words into my title might do to hits on my site. I would not use words gratuitiously, just to generate hits. However, this is a legitimate observation on the subject. We shall see.
Skill grows by exercise, and reaching for new goals. I do not consider pornography a real stretch, but when a momentary observation led to a short story that cannot be classed as anything else, I wrote it down. It was an interesting experience. The exercise was real writing, and I sought to write a quality piece. I am pleased with the results.
I doubt that I will publish it. I certainly will not publish it here. I want to be able to share this site with anyone interested in my work.
I was interested, however, in just what introducing the words into my title might do to hits on my site. I would not use words gratuitiously, just to generate hits. However, this is a legitimate observation on the subject. We shall see.
Professional blogging-
Having completed the first draft of my first novel, I am exploring the sale of such an item. This is much more involved than just joining Blogger and posting short stories. I can go several routes, and will probably travel one or two on my way to publication and sales.
One aspect of selling a book seems to be promotion. Once a task for the professional publishers, it seems to be something the writer must now master. Blogging is becoming a major factor in promotion. Hence, the need to learn another art.
On the whole I value new learning opportunities. However, this will be a stretch. I am not a particularly social being, and this networking on a global scale is daunting. Daunting, but with a strong element of fun.
Time will be a factor. Time spent blogging. Not just writing, but visiting blogs, commenting on blogs, and seeking to make myself a presence in the bloggosphere. Some long for popularity and fame. I do not. I do, however, wish to attain some success with my writing. So, I face new challenges.
It should be interesting. It can be fun. It will be a bit of work.
One aspect of selling a book seems to be promotion. Once a task for the professional publishers, it seems to be something the writer must now master. Blogging is becoming a major factor in promotion. Hence, the need to learn another art.
On the whole I value new learning opportunities. However, this will be a stretch. I am not a particularly social being, and this networking on a global scale is daunting. Daunting, but with a strong element of fun.
Time will be a factor. Time spent blogging. Not just writing, but visiting blogs, commenting on blogs, and seeking to make myself a presence in the bloggosphere. Some long for popularity and fame. I do not. I do, however, wish to attain some success with my writing. So, I face new challenges.
It should be interesting. It can be fun. It will be a bit of work.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Writing a novel-
Today I finished the first draft of my novel. What an interesting sensation! I know I have a lot of work ahead, but it was great to accomplish this task. Finished!
As I had shared in an earlier post, I returned to writing as a way of overcoming depression. In combating depression a very important tool is to DO SOMETHING. Not something in particular, but to do SOMETHING. I returned to writing.
At first it was just short stories to be published here. Then I started a big project. I started writing a novel. I kept going, no matter what. Over one hundred and two thousand words later, it is done. I kept going. As a tool to fight depression, it worked.
That, in itself, made the task worthwhile. However, I intend to see it to completion. I also will soon begin my next work. Doing something works, and I intend to keep doing it.
As I had shared in an earlier post, I returned to writing as a way of overcoming depression. In combating depression a very important tool is to DO SOMETHING. Not something in particular, but to do SOMETHING. I returned to writing.
At first it was just short stories to be published here. Then I started a big project. I started writing a novel. I kept going, no matter what. Over one hundred and two thousand words later, it is done. I kept going. As a tool to fight depression, it worked.
That, in itself, made the task worthwhile. However, I intend to see it to completion. I also will soon begin my next work. Doing something works, and I intend to keep doing it.
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Wednesday, August 1, 2007
The Caretaker's Tale
The Caretaker’s Tale
A short story by Michael R. Lockridge
Thomas Cranston made his way carefully among the stones in his garden. He knew the way well. He had been tending this particular garden for over twenty years. Though the night was moonless, he did not stumble. He knew the location of every tombstone by heart. He was soon at the backdoor of the caretaker’s cottage. His home.
Once inside he put down his burden. He looked proudly at the large dining room table he had assembled in his living room. It dominated the limited space. It was old and worn, and well past its prime. He had recovered it from a nearby restaurant that was undergoing demolition. It seemed so very appropriate.
The table had been set with great care. Every cracked plate, each chipped cup had been collected with much thought. Mismatched silverware, old and tarnished, was laid out with the aged china. Things that had see the end of their days, culled from trashcans and dumpsters. Each selected because they were just right.
Recycled tablecloth, seventeen place settings, various resurrected serving dishes. One place setting for each of the guests that had inspired him. Sixteen novels written in the last twenty years. Not bad, for a humble cemetery caretaker.
The thought of the feast brought him back to the burden he had so recently been carrying. From the large sack he drew forth an old can. He held the can over one of the serving dishes, and poured the contents into the dish. Though nothing appeared to come from the can, he took great care to spill none of it.
From discarded cans, jars and bottles he poured nothing onto plate after plate. Creamed corn, stewed tomatoes, string beans, and winter peas. The containers were all empty, but the labels still decried the former contents. A feast long gone, being prepared with care.
Last of all, Thomas extracted from the bag the bony carcass of what might once have been a good-sized turkey. This he placed on the large serving platter that occupied the center of the table. Oh, and lest he forget, he brought from a side cupboard several empty wine bottles.
His preparations were complete. Thomas gathered the twice-emptied cans and other containers, and put them back in the sack. This he stowed in a garbage can just outside the back door of his little cottage.
Thomas then went to his dresser, and laid out the fine clothing he had gathered for this event. He had worn the fine suit only once, after the publication of his first book. He had been given an award, and his publisher encouraged him to dress well for the gala event at which he was to receive the token of his success. The press of humanity was almost too much for him to take, and he vowed to never attend another such event.
His publisher’s admonitions to promote his books fell on deaf ears. Finally, their marketing department played up Thomas Cranston’s eccentricity. Whatever the case, all of his books had done well. Now he would wear this suit to honor those who inspired his writing.
Dressed, with his remaining hair put in place, he was ready. Thomas went to the front door, and opened it wide. The cool darkness outside was inviting. He breathed deeply, and then went back to the table. On the way he turned out all of the lights. He sat at the head of the table, and waited.
Slowly, the darkness began to slip inside the room. Though the room was already dark, the darkness began to take on a depth. Darkness upon darkness. Tendrils of darkness. Strange fingers reaching into the room, caressing everything. Engulfing everything.
The darkness engulfed the table. It slipped around Thomas’ feet, and gathered itself to envelope him. Still he waited. Thomas began to smile.
Points of light appeared above the table. The darkness withdrew from the points of light. They were flames, candle flames. The stubs of candles in the holders on the table were kindled. Now they were fat, tall candles in beautifully matched candelabras. They cast a warm glow on a fabulous feast.
The table was laden with dish after fabulous dish of the most wonderful foods. They smoked and steamed, and filled the small cottage with wondrous aromas. Presiding over all of the delicacies was a plump brown roasted turkey. The humble cottage had never hosted such a feast.
Though the darkness had withdrawn from the light, it had gathered into pools around the room. One pool seemed to sharpen, to coalesce. A man stepped from the gathered darkness, and stepped toward the man at the head of the table.
“Ah, Thomas. So good to see you. What a magnificent dinner! So kind of you to have invited me!” Said the man. “My stone looks marvelous! Thank you for such wonderful care! My rest is untroubled, knowing you are attending to things up here!”
Thomas stood, and offered his hand. His guest shook it warmly.
“Clive Sinclair. So good of you to come.” Said Thomas. “I see the others are arriving.”
The darkness gathered into fifteen pools of endless night. From each pool stepped another guest. Thomas greeted each of them warmly.
“Ladies, Gentlemen. Please, be seated. I present to you the feast!”
For an hour it was knives and forks. Plates passing up and down the table. Soon, the venerable turkey once again looked like the cadaver Thomas had pulled from his sack.
Plates and glasses were emptied, filled, and emptied again.
At long last, Clive Sinclair stood up from the table. “Ladies and Gentlemen,” He said, “Please, fill your glasses once again.”
Fine vintage poured from once empty bottles. Several were once again emptied.
Clive raised his glass, and nodded toward Thomas. “A toast to Thomas Cranston. The man who gave us each a second chance at life, through his written words. To Thomas!”
He drained his glass.
“To Thomas!” came the chorus. All glasses were drained.
Thomas stood and shook Clive’s hand. Clive was once again seated. Thomas continued standing.
“My dear friends.” He began. “It is you who gave me new life. I had so very little, when I found this job. I had lost my family, lost my purpose. I was empty. I took this job simply to keep myself alive, probably more out of habit than anything. I was dead, inside.”
There was a general murmuring around the table.
“Then, one by one, you came to me. You told me the tales of your lives, and I wrote them down. Fortune smiled upon me, for the tales were published. I have no need of wealth, but it allowed me to provide for those I had previously failed.” Thomas continued. “By that I was able to purchase as much happiness as I am warranted.”
More murmurs of gentle encouragement and sympathy.
“The last tale is told. The books are selling. I have made provision for the money to go out into the world, and do good.” Said Thomas. “I am as content as ever I have been. More so than I deserve. Thank you, my friends.”
Gentle applause. Glasses once again filled and drained. Eyes turned, as one, toward their host. Then upward they looked, at the noose affixed to the rafters above his head.
Thomas turned, and with some effort stood upon his chair. He turned again, and placed the loop of rope around his neck.
“My friends, I join you!”
Thomas kicked backward. His chair toppled. The light of the candles winked out.
The darkness was complete. No light found its way into the room. There was no sound, except for the creak of a rope against the beam. Then another sound. The sound of the chair being set upright.
The candles rekindled, their light slowly growing. The darkness pushed back, to reveal the party in their seats.
Thomas sat once again in his chair. He appeared younger, more vital. His friends raised their glasses in silent salute. They all drained their glasses, and then rose as one. Thomas rose with them. The darkness gathered around them all, rising like a vapor. After a moment it collapsed, spilling across the floor and out the open door.
The chairs were empty. A gentle breeze blew in through the open door. One by one, the candles surrendered to the darkness. The creak of the rope continued into the long night. Thomas Cranston had written his final chapter.
A short story by Michael R. Lockridge
Thomas Cranston made his way carefully among the stones in his garden. He knew the way well. He had been tending this particular garden for over twenty years. Though the night was moonless, he did not stumble. He knew the location of every tombstone by heart. He was soon at the backdoor of the caretaker’s cottage. His home.
Once inside he put down his burden. He looked proudly at the large dining room table he had assembled in his living room. It dominated the limited space. It was old and worn, and well past its prime. He had recovered it from a nearby restaurant that was undergoing demolition. It seemed so very appropriate.
The table had been set with great care. Every cracked plate, each chipped cup had been collected with much thought. Mismatched silverware, old and tarnished, was laid out with the aged china. Things that had see the end of their days, culled from trashcans and dumpsters. Each selected because they were just right.
Recycled tablecloth, seventeen place settings, various resurrected serving dishes. One place setting for each of the guests that had inspired him. Sixteen novels written in the last twenty years. Not bad, for a humble cemetery caretaker.
The thought of the feast brought him back to the burden he had so recently been carrying. From the large sack he drew forth an old can. He held the can over one of the serving dishes, and poured the contents into the dish. Though nothing appeared to come from the can, he took great care to spill none of it.
From discarded cans, jars and bottles he poured nothing onto plate after plate. Creamed corn, stewed tomatoes, string beans, and winter peas. The containers were all empty, but the labels still decried the former contents. A feast long gone, being prepared with care.
Last of all, Thomas extracted from the bag the bony carcass of what might once have been a good-sized turkey. This he placed on the large serving platter that occupied the center of the table. Oh, and lest he forget, he brought from a side cupboard several empty wine bottles.
His preparations were complete. Thomas gathered the twice-emptied cans and other containers, and put them back in the sack. This he stowed in a garbage can just outside the back door of his little cottage.
Thomas then went to his dresser, and laid out the fine clothing he had gathered for this event. He had worn the fine suit only once, after the publication of his first book. He had been given an award, and his publisher encouraged him to dress well for the gala event at which he was to receive the token of his success. The press of humanity was almost too much for him to take, and he vowed to never attend another such event.
His publisher’s admonitions to promote his books fell on deaf ears. Finally, their marketing department played up Thomas Cranston’s eccentricity. Whatever the case, all of his books had done well. Now he would wear this suit to honor those who inspired his writing.
Dressed, with his remaining hair put in place, he was ready. Thomas went to the front door, and opened it wide. The cool darkness outside was inviting. He breathed deeply, and then went back to the table. On the way he turned out all of the lights. He sat at the head of the table, and waited.
Slowly, the darkness began to slip inside the room. Though the room was already dark, the darkness began to take on a depth. Darkness upon darkness. Tendrils of darkness. Strange fingers reaching into the room, caressing everything. Engulfing everything.
The darkness engulfed the table. It slipped around Thomas’ feet, and gathered itself to envelope him. Still he waited. Thomas began to smile.
Points of light appeared above the table. The darkness withdrew from the points of light. They were flames, candle flames. The stubs of candles in the holders on the table were kindled. Now they were fat, tall candles in beautifully matched candelabras. They cast a warm glow on a fabulous feast.
The table was laden with dish after fabulous dish of the most wonderful foods. They smoked and steamed, and filled the small cottage with wondrous aromas. Presiding over all of the delicacies was a plump brown roasted turkey. The humble cottage had never hosted such a feast.
Though the darkness had withdrawn from the light, it had gathered into pools around the room. One pool seemed to sharpen, to coalesce. A man stepped from the gathered darkness, and stepped toward the man at the head of the table.
“Ah, Thomas. So good to see you. What a magnificent dinner! So kind of you to have invited me!” Said the man. “My stone looks marvelous! Thank you for such wonderful care! My rest is untroubled, knowing you are attending to things up here!”
Thomas stood, and offered his hand. His guest shook it warmly.
“Clive Sinclair. So good of you to come.” Said Thomas. “I see the others are arriving.”
The darkness gathered into fifteen pools of endless night. From each pool stepped another guest. Thomas greeted each of them warmly.
“Ladies, Gentlemen. Please, be seated. I present to you the feast!”
For an hour it was knives and forks. Plates passing up and down the table. Soon, the venerable turkey once again looked like the cadaver Thomas had pulled from his sack.
Plates and glasses were emptied, filled, and emptied again.
At long last, Clive Sinclair stood up from the table. “Ladies and Gentlemen,” He said, “Please, fill your glasses once again.”
Fine vintage poured from once empty bottles. Several were once again emptied.
Clive raised his glass, and nodded toward Thomas. “A toast to Thomas Cranston. The man who gave us each a second chance at life, through his written words. To Thomas!”
He drained his glass.
“To Thomas!” came the chorus. All glasses were drained.
Thomas stood and shook Clive’s hand. Clive was once again seated. Thomas continued standing.
“My dear friends.” He began. “It is you who gave me new life. I had so very little, when I found this job. I had lost my family, lost my purpose. I was empty. I took this job simply to keep myself alive, probably more out of habit than anything. I was dead, inside.”
There was a general murmuring around the table.
“Then, one by one, you came to me. You told me the tales of your lives, and I wrote them down. Fortune smiled upon me, for the tales were published. I have no need of wealth, but it allowed me to provide for those I had previously failed.” Thomas continued. “By that I was able to purchase as much happiness as I am warranted.”
More murmurs of gentle encouragement and sympathy.
“The last tale is told. The books are selling. I have made provision for the money to go out into the world, and do good.” Said Thomas. “I am as content as ever I have been. More so than I deserve. Thank you, my friends.”
Gentle applause. Glasses once again filled and drained. Eyes turned, as one, toward their host. Then upward they looked, at the noose affixed to the rafters above his head.
Thomas turned, and with some effort stood upon his chair. He turned again, and placed the loop of rope around his neck.
“My friends, I join you!”
Thomas kicked backward. His chair toppled. The light of the candles winked out.
The darkness was complete. No light found its way into the room. There was no sound, except for the creak of a rope against the beam. Then another sound. The sound of the chair being set upright.
The candles rekindled, their light slowly growing. The darkness pushed back, to reveal the party in their seats.
Thomas sat once again in his chair. He appeared younger, more vital. His friends raised their glasses in silent salute. They all drained their glasses, and then rose as one. Thomas rose with them. The darkness gathered around them all, rising like a vapor. After a moment it collapsed, spilling across the floor and out the open door.
The chairs were empty. A gentle breeze blew in through the open door. One by one, the candles surrendered to the darkness. The creak of the rope continued into the long night. Thomas Cranston had written his final chapter.
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Thursday, July 26, 2007
Favorite story themes-
I recall very much enjoying horror movies which had castles and mansions riddled with secret rooms and hidden passages. I still enjoy these in a story. I can recall seeking secret rooms in our house when I was a child, absolutely convinced that there had to be some mysterious places in our ordinary abode.
Crossing magical boundaries is also a favorite theme. Several of my little stories have this theme as an element. I recall several writers who used these mystical transitions, Lovecraft chief among them. I think the prospect was particularly sweet to my young mind, so many years ago. It promised escape from the mundane, high adventure, infinite possibilities.
Powers of magic were also appealing. The prospect of the "little guy" being able to obtain powers to right wrongs and protect the innocent seemed very appealing to me. Even today this appeals to me. In the game World of Warcraft my primary character is but two feet tall, yet a very powerful fire mage.
Perhaps it is the power to overcome obstacles which I found appealing. The power of secret places, allowing resources to be accumulated and created under the eyes of the enemy. The power to move in unconventional ways, circumventing the counter moves of opponents. The power to simply overwhelm enemies with power itself.
Quite appealing to a "little guy" who might be overwhelmed by a big world. Mysterious powers, unknown and unanticipated by worldly opponents. I am not so little, now. Still, the world is greater, and often overwhelming. I might just like to withdraw to my secret lair, beyond a mysterious barrier, where I can learn to master unbelievable powers to overcome all who oppose me.
Yes, quite appealing, indeed.
Crossing magical boundaries is also a favorite theme. Several of my little stories have this theme as an element. I recall several writers who used these mystical transitions, Lovecraft chief among them. I think the prospect was particularly sweet to my young mind, so many years ago. It promised escape from the mundane, high adventure, infinite possibilities.
Powers of magic were also appealing. The prospect of the "little guy" being able to obtain powers to right wrongs and protect the innocent seemed very appealing to me. Even today this appeals to me. In the game World of Warcraft my primary character is but two feet tall, yet a very powerful fire mage.
Perhaps it is the power to overcome obstacles which I found appealing. The power of secret places, allowing resources to be accumulated and created under the eyes of the enemy. The power to move in unconventional ways, circumventing the counter moves of opponents. The power to simply overwhelm enemies with power itself.
Quite appealing to a "little guy" who might be overwhelmed by a big world. Mysterious powers, unknown and unanticipated by worldly opponents. I am not so little, now. Still, the world is greater, and often overwhelming. I might just like to withdraw to my secret lair, beyond a mysterious barrier, where I can learn to master unbelievable powers to overcome all who oppose me.
Yes, quite appealing, indeed.
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Junkietown
Junkietown
A short story by Michael R. Lockridge
Dirt flew up in an arc, then down onto a growing pile next to the large hole. Some slid down the side of the pile, and fell back into the hole. A moment later, another bit of dirt flew in a similar arc onto the same pile.
Nearby, a young man sat on the cemetery fence. He munched the apple in his hand, and watched the birth of a grave. A hole that held all of the promises available in this small town. Another bite of the apple. Another shovel full of dirt. Sometime this week, the grave would be needed. The digging was slow, but relentless.
“Whatcha doin’ today, Grease?” Asked someone behind him.
“Hello, Hank.” Said the young man sitting on the fence.
“Howdja know it was me?” Asked Hank.
Grease would not let his alcoholic friend know that his boozy scent was quite distinctive. Friends were hard to come by in Junkietown.
“Just a feeling.” Said Grease. He took one more bite of his apple, and then cast the core away into the bushes. “I am waiting for the bus.”
Hank was carrying a large plastic cup, nearly full of a pungent clear liquid. He must have just come from the “well.” He took a sip, and then offered the cup to his friend on the fence.
Grease accepted the cup. It was none too clean, but he was not concerned about that. The contents would kill anything living on the rim of the cup. Grease just didn’t much like alcohol. He had another drug of choice. Even so, he took a polite sip, and returned the cup.
The two of them continued like this for a time. Together they finished off the contents of Hank’s cup, just as the gravedigger finished the grave.
The digger heaved himself out of the hole. Grabbing his tools, he moved everything down a few feet. After taking a large drink from his water jug, the gravedigger started his next grave.
Hank looked at the bottom of his cup, and then started wandering toward the middle of town. Grease watched the beginnings of the new grave until he heard a diesel engine struggling through the pass into town.
Grease found himself a place near the town hall, where the new residents were dropped off by the Sheriff’s ancient bus. Seven men were disgorged from the ancient transport. They soon stood in a pile of their meager possessions, as the Sheriff’s deputy checked off their names. Without a further word, the deputy got back on the bus, and the door closed. Moments later the taillights disappeared back the way the bus had come.
“Get your stuff and follow me.” Grease said to one of the younger men. The young man glanced around, and then did as instructed. Grease did not even look back as the vultures descended on the property of the new guys. Fresh fish were fair game in Junkietown. Grease felt good just saving one once in a while.
He led the new guy toward his own dormitory building. Inside the main entrance he plucked a key from the room board. The new guy followed, clutching his small bag of personals. Up the stairs and down the hall. Grease put the key in the lock, and pushed the door open. He stood aside and offered the new guy the key.
“They call me Grease.” He said. “I don’t want to call you ‘new guy.’ What’s your name?”
“Dave.” Said the new guy, absently. He stepped into the small room, and looked around. A sickly light filtered in through the dirty window. It revealed a cell-like room, with a built-in bunk. On the bunk was a mattress of dubious quality. A small sink and a toilet huddled in the corner. He threw his small bag onto the bunk, and hugged himself.
“You need a fix.” Grease said. “So do I. Let’s go down and get you on the schedule.”
Dave stepped back out of the room, and closed the door. He started to turn away.
“Lock it.” Said Grease. “Some of these guys will steal anything, just to stay in practice.”
Dave did so, and then the two of them began walking back toward the center of the small town.
They walked through the decaying town center. Grease noticed that the new guy, Dave, did not display much interest in his new surroundings. Grease understood.
“The stuff they give you here is cut clean.” Grease offered. Dave perked up. The subject matter was already on his mind. “It’s government stuff. Your records will indicate the starting dose. After the first week, you can boost that as much as you want.”
Dave looked incredulous.
“They don’t care, man.” Grease went on. “This isn’t methadone, or some magic elixir to help you quit. They gave up on that. One shot at a drug treatment program. I had that. You had that. Failures come here, use freely, and die.”
Dave looked horrified. “So it’s true? What they said was true?”
“Sure, it’s true. Cheaper to just supply the stuff to those who don’t want to quit.”
He watched the new guy out of the corner of his eye. Junk, as much as you want. For free. The only price was living in a dead town, with no way out. Miles from anywhere. Miles from everywhere.
There it was. The realization. The new guy began to smile. Junkie Heaven!
Junkie Hell. Dave would remain the new guy, until he realized the true nature of his new home. Grease could use a new friend, but he would have to see this one over the hump, first.
“Here we are.” Said Grease. He led Dave into a former pharmacy. The irony was lost on the new guy. Hunger was all he knew, right now.
They went to the counter, and Grease introduced Dave to the man working the distribution. The man worked his computer, and then directed the two down to the window at the end of the counter.
They each received a loaded hypodermic, a rubber tie, and an alcohol swab. Grease went to a set of chairs along one wall. Dave followed. In moments each was nodding in one of the chairs. Someone came and collected the used rigs while they nodded.
A bit later, Grease was sitting and watching the new guy. When he seemed together enough, Grease encouraged him to follow out into the street. The obscene sense of well-being flooded Grease. He knew that the new guy felt the same. Still, he needed to learn a few things, get set up for living in Junkietown.
Grease guided the young man around for about an hour. He showed him the Laundromat, which once required coins but was now free. He showed him the commissary, where a few things were provided by the state for the needs of their charges. They visited the park, where winos and junkies hung out between meals and fixes.
He showed him the “well;” the large tank of alcohol made available to anyone who wanted the raw stuff.
“I hate that crap, myself.” Said Grease. “But it’s free.”
He showed him where to eat.
They had lunch, since they were already there and the meal was being set out.
“The food is pretty good.” Said Grease. “May as well make yourself eat, even when you don’t feel like it. No point in getting sucked up around here. You don’t have to choose between food and dope. You can have all you want.” He didn’t think Dave picked up the bitterness in this observation.
After lunch, Grease excused himself.
“Got something I need to do.” He said.
Dave wandered around for a while, then went back to his new dwelling. “Home” was too generous a term. He spent some time cleaning, since he was not dope sick and he wasn’t hungry. Finally, he felt he was finished. He found the shower, down the hall. Once he was cleaned up and dressed, he found he had nothing more to do.
It took him some time to find his new friend. Grease was sitting on a rock, sipping at a plastic cup and looking down a wooded trail.
“What’s that?” Dave asked. He nodded toward the trail.
Grease took another sip.
“That’s the only other way out of town, other than the graveyard.” He answered.
“I though you didn’t like to drink that crap.” Dave said, as he watched Grease stare down the trail.
“I don’t.” Grease answered. “But once in a while I come here, and see if I can talk myself into trying. I keep hoping there’s courage in the cup.”
“Trying what?” Asked Dave.
“The trail.” Grease said. “It’s a two day walk. Two days, no junk. No alcohol. Just walking, trying to stay alive.”
Dave looked down the trail. “Why try?” He asked.
“Some say that there is a treatment center at the end. Another chance at a new, clean life. I come here, sometimes, and wonder if I want it enough to start walking.”
He drained the cup.
“Not today. Come on.” Grease said.
The two began walking back toward the center of Junkietown.
A short story by Michael R. Lockridge
Dirt flew up in an arc, then down onto a growing pile next to the large hole. Some slid down the side of the pile, and fell back into the hole. A moment later, another bit of dirt flew in a similar arc onto the same pile.
Nearby, a young man sat on the cemetery fence. He munched the apple in his hand, and watched the birth of a grave. A hole that held all of the promises available in this small town. Another bite of the apple. Another shovel full of dirt. Sometime this week, the grave would be needed. The digging was slow, but relentless.
“Whatcha doin’ today, Grease?” Asked someone behind him.
“Hello, Hank.” Said the young man sitting on the fence.
“Howdja know it was me?” Asked Hank.
Grease would not let his alcoholic friend know that his boozy scent was quite distinctive. Friends were hard to come by in Junkietown.
“Just a feeling.” Said Grease. He took one more bite of his apple, and then cast the core away into the bushes. “I am waiting for the bus.”
Hank was carrying a large plastic cup, nearly full of a pungent clear liquid. He must have just come from the “well.” He took a sip, and then offered the cup to his friend on the fence.
Grease accepted the cup. It was none too clean, but he was not concerned about that. The contents would kill anything living on the rim of the cup. Grease just didn’t much like alcohol. He had another drug of choice. Even so, he took a polite sip, and returned the cup.
The two of them continued like this for a time. Together they finished off the contents of Hank’s cup, just as the gravedigger finished the grave.
The digger heaved himself out of the hole. Grabbing his tools, he moved everything down a few feet. After taking a large drink from his water jug, the gravedigger started his next grave.
Hank looked at the bottom of his cup, and then started wandering toward the middle of town. Grease watched the beginnings of the new grave until he heard a diesel engine struggling through the pass into town.
Grease found himself a place near the town hall, where the new residents were dropped off by the Sheriff’s ancient bus. Seven men were disgorged from the ancient transport. They soon stood in a pile of their meager possessions, as the Sheriff’s deputy checked off their names. Without a further word, the deputy got back on the bus, and the door closed. Moments later the taillights disappeared back the way the bus had come.
“Get your stuff and follow me.” Grease said to one of the younger men. The young man glanced around, and then did as instructed. Grease did not even look back as the vultures descended on the property of the new guys. Fresh fish were fair game in Junkietown. Grease felt good just saving one once in a while.
He led the new guy toward his own dormitory building. Inside the main entrance he plucked a key from the room board. The new guy followed, clutching his small bag of personals. Up the stairs and down the hall. Grease put the key in the lock, and pushed the door open. He stood aside and offered the new guy the key.
“They call me Grease.” He said. “I don’t want to call you ‘new guy.’ What’s your name?”
“Dave.” Said the new guy, absently. He stepped into the small room, and looked around. A sickly light filtered in through the dirty window. It revealed a cell-like room, with a built-in bunk. On the bunk was a mattress of dubious quality. A small sink and a toilet huddled in the corner. He threw his small bag onto the bunk, and hugged himself.
“You need a fix.” Grease said. “So do I. Let’s go down and get you on the schedule.”
Dave stepped back out of the room, and closed the door. He started to turn away.
“Lock it.” Said Grease. “Some of these guys will steal anything, just to stay in practice.”
Dave did so, and then the two of them began walking back toward the center of the small town.
They walked through the decaying town center. Grease noticed that the new guy, Dave, did not display much interest in his new surroundings. Grease understood.
“The stuff they give you here is cut clean.” Grease offered. Dave perked up. The subject matter was already on his mind. “It’s government stuff. Your records will indicate the starting dose. After the first week, you can boost that as much as you want.”
Dave looked incredulous.
“They don’t care, man.” Grease went on. “This isn’t methadone, or some magic elixir to help you quit. They gave up on that. One shot at a drug treatment program. I had that. You had that. Failures come here, use freely, and die.”
Dave looked horrified. “So it’s true? What they said was true?”
“Sure, it’s true. Cheaper to just supply the stuff to those who don’t want to quit.”
He watched the new guy out of the corner of his eye. Junk, as much as you want. For free. The only price was living in a dead town, with no way out. Miles from anywhere. Miles from everywhere.
There it was. The realization. The new guy began to smile. Junkie Heaven!
Junkie Hell. Dave would remain the new guy, until he realized the true nature of his new home. Grease could use a new friend, but he would have to see this one over the hump, first.
“Here we are.” Said Grease. He led Dave into a former pharmacy. The irony was lost on the new guy. Hunger was all he knew, right now.
They went to the counter, and Grease introduced Dave to the man working the distribution. The man worked his computer, and then directed the two down to the window at the end of the counter.
They each received a loaded hypodermic, a rubber tie, and an alcohol swab. Grease went to a set of chairs along one wall. Dave followed. In moments each was nodding in one of the chairs. Someone came and collected the used rigs while they nodded.
A bit later, Grease was sitting and watching the new guy. When he seemed together enough, Grease encouraged him to follow out into the street. The obscene sense of well-being flooded Grease. He knew that the new guy felt the same. Still, he needed to learn a few things, get set up for living in Junkietown.
Grease guided the young man around for about an hour. He showed him the Laundromat, which once required coins but was now free. He showed him the commissary, where a few things were provided by the state for the needs of their charges. They visited the park, where winos and junkies hung out between meals and fixes.
He showed him the “well;” the large tank of alcohol made available to anyone who wanted the raw stuff.
“I hate that crap, myself.” Said Grease. “But it’s free.”
He showed him where to eat.
They had lunch, since they were already there and the meal was being set out.
“The food is pretty good.” Said Grease. “May as well make yourself eat, even when you don’t feel like it. No point in getting sucked up around here. You don’t have to choose between food and dope. You can have all you want.” He didn’t think Dave picked up the bitterness in this observation.
After lunch, Grease excused himself.
“Got something I need to do.” He said.
Dave wandered around for a while, then went back to his new dwelling. “Home” was too generous a term. He spent some time cleaning, since he was not dope sick and he wasn’t hungry. Finally, he felt he was finished. He found the shower, down the hall. Once he was cleaned up and dressed, he found he had nothing more to do.
It took him some time to find his new friend. Grease was sitting on a rock, sipping at a plastic cup and looking down a wooded trail.
“What’s that?” Dave asked. He nodded toward the trail.
Grease took another sip.
“That’s the only other way out of town, other than the graveyard.” He answered.
“I though you didn’t like to drink that crap.” Dave said, as he watched Grease stare down the trail.
“I don’t.” Grease answered. “But once in a while I come here, and see if I can talk myself into trying. I keep hoping there’s courage in the cup.”
“Trying what?” Asked Dave.
“The trail.” Grease said. “It’s a two day walk. Two days, no junk. No alcohol. Just walking, trying to stay alive.”
Dave looked down the trail. “Why try?” He asked.
“Some say that there is a treatment center at the end. Another chance at a new, clean life. I come here, sometimes, and wonder if I want it enough to start walking.”
He drained the cup.
“Not today. Come on.” Grease said.
The two began walking back toward the center of Junkietown.
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
A House Between
A House Between
A short story by Michael R. Lockridge
Lewis Carroll Todd was a walkin’ man. He was not always given to walking, but walking was pretty much his life, now. There was a time when his wife would tease him about using the car just to go down to the road to check the mail. Probably only fifty yards but he would drive rather than walk. But she didn’t tease him, anymore. She was gone. And that is why Lewis had become a walkin’ man.
He had planned his life carefully. Even in high school Lewis had known himself rather well. He knew he was not an intellectual giant. He was an adequate student. Never much trouble. He was a passable sportsman, even making second-string for football in his junior year. He elected not to play in his senior year.
Lewis knew that he was just an average guy in an average small town. When he finished school, he could go work in one of the local mills. He could work his life away, and retire a worn old man. Oh, there was always college, but high school demanded about as much as his intellect could deliver. College was just not a workable option.
Neither path appealed to him. So, as so many small town boys before him, Lewis found his way down to the Army recruiter’s office. He poured over the catalogs with the tough but personable sergeant who served there. The sergeant seemed to like Lewis, buying him lunch on two occasions and regaling him with tales of military adventure.
Garbyville was too small a town to have an Army testing center. The sergeant put Lewis on the bus to Winston, a high adventure for a small town boy. A night in the big city, two hundred miles from home. Even with the testing, there was time for a little sightseeing before he had to catch the bus back home. Yes, high adventure, indeed.
The test results arrived the following week, just three days after Lewis graduated from high school. Lewis was already pretty sure of his choice of jobs offered by the Army, and the test results confirmed his selection. The recruiting sergeant helped him fill out the paperwork, and Lewis was soon on his way.
It was a twenty-year journey. Lewis saw the world, got promotions, and visited exotic lands. He picked up a souvenir during his second tour in Viet Nam. Two inches of shrapnel removed from his left lower leg gave him a scar to talk about. Not a common injury for a sergeant in charge of a records unit.
His habits were always moderate. He never married. Marriage was hard for Army wives, and he never wanted to inflict the lifestyle on anyone. His few relationships were much like duty stations; he enjoyed them, always knowing they were going to end.
Twenty years passed, and he completed his military career with reasonable distinction. He returned to Garbyville, acquired a comfortable home, and found work with the Post Office. Though the job required a lot of walking, it was not at this time that he became the Walkin’ Man. That came much later.
Now that he was beyond his transient military career, Lewis allowed his heart to open up to the prospects of marriage. Now that he was in his middle years, he new that the prospects of marriage were not great. Even so, he was open to the idea. Sharing the rest of his days with someone appealed to him.
He met Ada on one of his routes. It was just a chance meeting. She happened to be at her mailbox when he made his delivery. Lewis later learned that it took her weeks to “happen” to be there when he arrived. They talked long enough that first day that Lewis had to rush through the rest of his route to finish anywhere near on time.
Lewis courted Ada quite simply. Simple was all that Lewis ever really knew. She was charmed by his simplicity, and appreciated his life of moderation. She had not been widowed all that long, and it took some time for Lewis to win her trust. Shortly after that, however, he won her heart and her hand.
They enjoyed many years together, living their small town lives. More and more Lewis looked forward to finishing his Post Office career. The two pensions would allow for a comfortable retirement. Lewis wanted to travel with the love of his life, discovering the world together.
Ada had no children from her first marriage, and their late union made children a non-issue between her and Lewis. Though they both sometimes felt the lack, for the most part they were content, each with the other. They made a life that was simple and comfortable.
Finally the day came when the Post Office presented Lewis with his gold watch. He had only collected a handful of those combined pension checks when he got the phone call. Ada, who had been visiting her sister in Winston, had fallen asleep at the wheel on her way home. Lewis had not gone with her because her sister got on his nerves. Once again, he was alone.
Lewis started walking to help him with his grief. He found himself wandering his old routes, head down and feet shuffling. He often could not remember beginning his walks. He would come to himself far from home. Sometimes he was not properly dressed. He seemed to shave rarely, and sometimes forgot to bathe. He would shuffle back home and drop off into an exhausted sleep. Often this was the only peace he knew.
With time, he began to heal. He started to take better care of himself, seeing to his bathing and shaving, and dressing better. His walks became more deliberate, and he started to see the things going on around him as he walked. It was during this time of healing that he learned that he had earned the title “The Walkin’ Man” in his little town.
Lewis was surprised to find himself enjoying his walks. He met many people, and made new friends. He often stopped to help someone in their garden, or to wash their car. He came to know little children, shopkeepers, old people, and young people. His life began to take on a new shape and to have meaning once again.
He even began developing a personal style. The Walkin’ Man collected walking shoes, walking sticks, and a variety of curious hats. Children especially liked his cane of white ash, carved to look like a striking cobra. The rhinestone eyes would flash and dance with light as the Walkin’ Man strode along the highways, byways, and quiet streets of Garbyville.
Lewis would wear baseball caps of various teams. Often he would wear the caps celebrating local schools. He had Stetsons, sport caps, and several broad-brimmed hats of straw. Though he rarely wore it, he had a particular favorite. His prized hat was called a Deerstalker, made famous by Sherlock Holmes.
Here, toward the end of his days, Lewis had found a place in life where he seemed to really fit. Though he did not get to do the traveling he had hoped for with his beloved Ada, he was traveling each day in his old hometown.
“One of the best days for walking I have ever seen.” Lewis observed one morning. He was striding along a stretch of country road that was new to him. He could not recall ever having set foot on this particular road, and the newness put an added bounce in his stride. He enjoyed the gritty dirt road, the grass on the verge, and the trees lining the way. Fields stretched to the surrounding hills, and all felt very right.
The sense of rightness was shaken, however, when Lewis realize that he could not recall how he had gotten to this particular stretch of road. He did not recall selecting his Cobra cane for the walk, and was a bit perplexed. The Cobra was generally a cane he used in town. For country walks he generally preferred a sturdy staff, more suitable for side trips into fields and wooded trails.
Also troubling him was his hat. He rarely wore the Deerstalker, yet here it was on his head. A broad brimmed straw hat was more suitable for a country adventure, yet here he was, wearing what was really just a showpiece. Most peculiar.
Still, the day was lovely.
“The trees ” Lewis exclaimed. “They seem so alive So very real.”
Indeed, every leaf, every needle, every bit of bark seemed to stand out, to dance with life and color. Even the hills on the horizon ahead seemed more defined, more present.
Lewis stopped walking. Slowly he turned, taking it all in. As he did so, he noticed something else that seemed peculiar. When he looked ahead, this vibrant sense of life and presence was very pronounced. When he looked back the way he had come, everything appeared diminished, and less defined. The colors near the horizon in that direction seemed to be fading, even as he watched.
Lewis looked ahead, once again. The vibrancy, the life in the scene ahead called to him. He began walking toward this vibrancy, this glory that was calling to him.
He came around a bend, and saw a charming little cottage on his off to one side. It nestled into the hillside, and was surrounded by a picket fence. Growing all over the picket fence were climbing roses. As Lewis drew nearer, he could see a variety of flowers growing on the vine. White ones, red ones, and yellow ones as well. Very lovely. What gave him pause, however, were the blue roses. Blue roses Never before had he seen such a thing.
It was then that Lewis noticed the man standing on the porch. It was a very nice porch, shady and cool, and very inviting. The man stood easy, leaning on one of the pillars. He smiled as Lewis drew near, and gave him a little wave.
“Ahoy, the Walkin’ Man ” he said, as if he were the captain of a ship. Lewis was a bit taken aback. The man skipped down the steps and walked to the gate in the picket fence. “Come, have a cup of tea ” He offered, waving for Lewis to come in.
Lewis paused a moment, considering. The man was very peculiar, but did not seem threatening. A bit larger than average, yet he seemed sprightly. He appeared young, yet had a sense of great years about him. The name Tom Bombadil came to mind, though he new not why.
He stepped forward, and offered his hand.
“Lewis Todd.” He said.
The man shook Lewis’ hand. “And I’m Thomas Ross. Why don’t you mention the ‘Carroll’ when you introduce yourself?”
Lewis paused a moment. Twice this man had expressed knowledge about himself that he had no obvious reason to know. It was very upsetting.
“My parents were a bit pretentious in naming me.” Lewis replied. “I am not a man of great imagination.”
Lewis stood up. “I think I must be going.” He said.
“Oh?” replied Thomas Ross. “I was about to invite you to tea.”
“Thank you, no.” Said Lewis, as he edged down the stairs to the gate. “I think I shall be on my way.”
“Well, if you insist.” Said Mr. Ross. “Nice to have met you.”
“It has been interesting, Mr. Ross.” Said Lewis. He let himself out through the gate, and began walking down the middle of the road. He elected to not look back.
The road continued around the hill, and soon the magic of the day again engaged Lewis’ mind. The bright sunshine, the brilliant definition of the trees and grass, the wonderful sound of his feet on the grit of the road, all set him quickly at ease. Soon, the cottage was out of site, and nearly out of mind.
Almost immediately another chimney presented itself through the trees. Lewis noticed that this next cottage looked remarkably like the one he had just left. The same color, similar picket fence. Similar roses growing on the fence. The similarity included the very unusual blue roses.
Lewis was not entirely surprised to find Thomas Ross standing at the gate.
“Is that offer of tea still open, Mr. Ross?” asked Lewis.
“Absolutely ” Thomas Ross replied. “And please, call me Tom.”
Tom ushered Lewis into the house, and into a very cozy kitchen.
Lewis was very glad to sit down. Standing had become difficult. As he sat by the table, Tom went busily about the preparations for their tea. Once again the image of that sagacious character from Middle Earth came to mind, though Lewis still could not quite say just why.
Finally, tea was ready and on the table. Tom sat down and began to pour.
“Mr. Ross.” Said Lewis. “Tom. Just what happened back there?”
Tom took a sip of his tea. He added a bit of lemon, and then looked long at Lewis.
“What do you last recall, before you came here, Lewis?” he asked.
“Just being at home. Last night. I was troubled a bit by indigestion, and it caused me to sleep poorly.” Replied Lewis. “But what does that have to do with what happened just now?”
“That may come clear in a moment.” Said Tom. “What is the first think you recall this morning?”
“Walking down this road. Being amazed by the wonder of the day.” Said Lewis.
“You don’t recall getting up? Preparing for the day? Setting out on the journey that brought you here?” Tom inquired.
“No. But then, when I first lost my wife, I often came to myself, far from home.” Lewis said. “ I could not always recall what brought me there. So, today was not especially peculiar in that respect.”
Tom nodded. “Yes, I can see that those were hard days for you.”
Lewis took a sip of his tea. He, too, added a bit of lemon. He took another sip, and then waited on his host.
“This place is a bit of a way station.” Said Tom. “Not all roads are easy, nor are all transitions. This is a house between.”
Lewis sat, and waited a bit more.
“There is no going back, Lewis.” Tom continued. “But, unless you are ready, there is not yet a going forward. I have not been ready to go forward for some time, but now I am. At least, I think I am.”
No going back. Slowly, it was dawning on Lewis what it was that this house existed between. He put down his teacup, and sat back.
“Lewis, please come with me into the next room.”
Lewis stood, and quietly followed his host through the doorway.
The room was most unusual. The walls and ceiling were hung with fantastic tapestries. The floor covered by exquisite rugs of intricate design. Every surface seemed to tell a tale in threads of various hues.
Around the room were pedestals, upon which were some interesting objects. One contained a wax tablet and stylus. Another a stone tablet, and tools to work the runes. Each one had some kind of recording device. Near a desk sat the last two in the series. One held a parchment and quill pen. On the other was an ancient manual typewriter with a sheet of paper on the platen.
On the desk was a computer. The monitor was on, and a blank page was displayed.
“Please, sit at the desk, Lewis.” Said Tom. Lewis did so. Tom sat down in a chair that had been placed near the desk.
“I have sat in that chair on so many occasions. So many tales I have recorded there.” Tom said. He sighed. “So many tales.”
Lewis waited. He remained confused, but a strange quiet was settling on him. A sense of rightness. Not quite destiny, but purpose.
“Will you record my tale?” Tom asked.
“Yes, I will.” Said Lewis. He placed his fingers on the keyboard. Though he had never been much of a typist, he felt ready.
Tom began to speak, and Lewis began to write.
When it was done, and Lewis had saved the document, they both stood up. The passage of time seemed not to have affected them, for they both seemed refreshed. Silently, Tom led his guest from the room.
Tom went to a closet near the front door. From it he withdrew a fishing vest, festooned with tied flies. He put this on, and then withdrew from the closet a very fine fly rod. He settled a very comfortable looking hat on his head, sturdy but very old.
“Well, time to give it a try.” He said, and opened the door. Lewis followed him out to the road.
Lewis stood by him, as they both gazed longingly down the road. The day was still bright, still astounding. Rich with life and promise.
He said no more. He shook Lewis’ hand, and then turned and walked away.
Lewis stood in the middle of the road, and watched as Thomas Ross walked out of sight. He waited a time, but he did not hear any footsteps coming up behind him.
“A bit of a way station.” He said, aloud. “A house between.”
He stood a bit longer.
“Some are not yet ready.” He said. With a sigh, he walked back into the house.
A short story by Michael R. Lockridge
Lewis Carroll Todd was a walkin’ man. He was not always given to walking, but walking was pretty much his life, now. There was a time when his wife would tease him about using the car just to go down to the road to check the mail. Probably only fifty yards but he would drive rather than walk. But she didn’t tease him, anymore. She was gone. And that is why Lewis had become a walkin’ man.
He had planned his life carefully. Even in high school Lewis had known himself rather well. He knew he was not an intellectual giant. He was an adequate student. Never much trouble. He was a passable sportsman, even making second-string for football in his junior year. He elected not to play in his senior year.
Lewis knew that he was just an average guy in an average small town. When he finished school, he could go work in one of the local mills. He could work his life away, and retire a worn old man. Oh, there was always college, but high school demanded about as much as his intellect could deliver. College was just not a workable option.
Neither path appealed to him. So, as so many small town boys before him, Lewis found his way down to the Army recruiter’s office. He poured over the catalogs with the tough but personable sergeant who served there. The sergeant seemed to like Lewis, buying him lunch on two occasions and regaling him with tales of military adventure.
Garbyville was too small a town to have an Army testing center. The sergeant put Lewis on the bus to Winston, a high adventure for a small town boy. A night in the big city, two hundred miles from home. Even with the testing, there was time for a little sightseeing before he had to catch the bus back home. Yes, high adventure, indeed.
The test results arrived the following week, just three days after Lewis graduated from high school. Lewis was already pretty sure of his choice of jobs offered by the Army, and the test results confirmed his selection. The recruiting sergeant helped him fill out the paperwork, and Lewis was soon on his way.
It was a twenty-year journey. Lewis saw the world, got promotions, and visited exotic lands. He picked up a souvenir during his second tour in Viet Nam. Two inches of shrapnel removed from his left lower leg gave him a scar to talk about. Not a common injury for a sergeant in charge of a records unit.
His habits were always moderate. He never married. Marriage was hard for Army wives, and he never wanted to inflict the lifestyle on anyone. His few relationships were much like duty stations; he enjoyed them, always knowing they were going to end.
Twenty years passed, and he completed his military career with reasonable distinction. He returned to Garbyville, acquired a comfortable home, and found work with the Post Office. Though the job required a lot of walking, it was not at this time that he became the Walkin’ Man. That came much later.
Now that he was beyond his transient military career, Lewis allowed his heart to open up to the prospects of marriage. Now that he was in his middle years, he new that the prospects of marriage were not great. Even so, he was open to the idea. Sharing the rest of his days with someone appealed to him.
He met Ada on one of his routes. It was just a chance meeting. She happened to be at her mailbox when he made his delivery. Lewis later learned that it took her weeks to “happen” to be there when he arrived. They talked long enough that first day that Lewis had to rush through the rest of his route to finish anywhere near on time.
Lewis courted Ada quite simply. Simple was all that Lewis ever really knew. She was charmed by his simplicity, and appreciated his life of moderation. She had not been widowed all that long, and it took some time for Lewis to win her trust. Shortly after that, however, he won her heart and her hand.
They enjoyed many years together, living their small town lives. More and more Lewis looked forward to finishing his Post Office career. The two pensions would allow for a comfortable retirement. Lewis wanted to travel with the love of his life, discovering the world together.
Ada had no children from her first marriage, and their late union made children a non-issue between her and Lewis. Though they both sometimes felt the lack, for the most part they were content, each with the other. They made a life that was simple and comfortable.
Finally the day came when the Post Office presented Lewis with his gold watch. He had only collected a handful of those combined pension checks when he got the phone call. Ada, who had been visiting her sister in Winston, had fallen asleep at the wheel on her way home. Lewis had not gone with her because her sister got on his nerves. Once again, he was alone.
Lewis started walking to help him with his grief. He found himself wandering his old routes, head down and feet shuffling. He often could not remember beginning his walks. He would come to himself far from home. Sometimes he was not properly dressed. He seemed to shave rarely, and sometimes forgot to bathe. He would shuffle back home and drop off into an exhausted sleep. Often this was the only peace he knew.
With time, he began to heal. He started to take better care of himself, seeing to his bathing and shaving, and dressing better. His walks became more deliberate, and he started to see the things going on around him as he walked. It was during this time of healing that he learned that he had earned the title “The Walkin’ Man” in his little town.
Lewis was surprised to find himself enjoying his walks. He met many people, and made new friends. He often stopped to help someone in their garden, or to wash their car. He came to know little children, shopkeepers, old people, and young people. His life began to take on a new shape and to have meaning once again.
He even began developing a personal style. The Walkin’ Man collected walking shoes, walking sticks, and a variety of curious hats. Children especially liked his cane of white ash, carved to look like a striking cobra. The rhinestone eyes would flash and dance with light as the Walkin’ Man strode along the highways, byways, and quiet streets of Garbyville.
Lewis would wear baseball caps of various teams. Often he would wear the caps celebrating local schools. He had Stetsons, sport caps, and several broad-brimmed hats of straw. Though he rarely wore it, he had a particular favorite. His prized hat was called a Deerstalker, made famous by Sherlock Holmes.
Here, toward the end of his days, Lewis had found a place in life where he seemed to really fit. Though he did not get to do the traveling he had hoped for with his beloved Ada, he was traveling each day in his old hometown.
“One of the best days for walking I have ever seen.” Lewis observed one morning. He was striding along a stretch of country road that was new to him. He could not recall ever having set foot on this particular road, and the newness put an added bounce in his stride. He enjoyed the gritty dirt road, the grass on the verge, and the trees lining the way. Fields stretched to the surrounding hills, and all felt very right.
The sense of rightness was shaken, however, when Lewis realize that he could not recall how he had gotten to this particular stretch of road. He did not recall selecting his Cobra cane for the walk, and was a bit perplexed. The Cobra was generally a cane he used in town. For country walks he generally preferred a sturdy staff, more suitable for side trips into fields and wooded trails.
Also troubling him was his hat. He rarely wore the Deerstalker, yet here it was on his head. A broad brimmed straw hat was more suitable for a country adventure, yet here he was, wearing what was really just a showpiece. Most peculiar.
Still, the day was lovely.
“The trees ” Lewis exclaimed. “They seem so alive So very real.”
Indeed, every leaf, every needle, every bit of bark seemed to stand out, to dance with life and color. Even the hills on the horizon ahead seemed more defined, more present.
Lewis stopped walking. Slowly he turned, taking it all in. As he did so, he noticed something else that seemed peculiar. When he looked ahead, this vibrant sense of life and presence was very pronounced. When he looked back the way he had come, everything appeared diminished, and less defined. The colors near the horizon in that direction seemed to be fading, even as he watched.
Lewis looked ahead, once again. The vibrancy, the life in the scene ahead called to him. He began walking toward this vibrancy, this glory that was calling to him.
He came around a bend, and saw a charming little cottage on his off to one side. It nestled into the hillside, and was surrounded by a picket fence. Growing all over the picket fence were climbing roses. As Lewis drew nearer, he could see a variety of flowers growing on the vine. White ones, red ones, and yellow ones as well. Very lovely. What gave him pause, however, were the blue roses. Blue roses Never before had he seen such a thing.
It was then that Lewis noticed the man standing on the porch. It was a very nice porch, shady and cool, and very inviting. The man stood easy, leaning on one of the pillars. He smiled as Lewis drew near, and gave him a little wave.
“Ahoy, the Walkin’ Man ” he said, as if he were the captain of a ship. Lewis was a bit taken aback. The man skipped down the steps and walked to the gate in the picket fence. “Come, have a cup of tea ” He offered, waving for Lewis to come in.
Lewis paused a moment, considering. The man was very peculiar, but did not seem threatening. A bit larger than average, yet he seemed sprightly. He appeared young, yet had a sense of great years about him. The name Tom Bombadil came to mind, though he new not why.
He stepped forward, and offered his hand.
“Lewis Todd.” He said.
The man shook Lewis’ hand. “And I’m Thomas Ross. Why don’t you mention the ‘Carroll’ when you introduce yourself?”
Lewis paused a moment. Twice this man had expressed knowledge about himself that he had no obvious reason to know. It was very upsetting.
“My parents were a bit pretentious in naming me.” Lewis replied. “I am not a man of great imagination.”
Lewis stood up. “I think I must be going.” He said.
“Oh?” replied Thomas Ross. “I was about to invite you to tea.”
“Thank you, no.” Said Lewis, as he edged down the stairs to the gate. “I think I shall be on my way.”
“Well, if you insist.” Said Mr. Ross. “Nice to have met you.”
“It has been interesting, Mr. Ross.” Said Lewis. He let himself out through the gate, and began walking down the middle of the road. He elected to not look back.
The road continued around the hill, and soon the magic of the day again engaged Lewis’ mind. The bright sunshine, the brilliant definition of the trees and grass, the wonderful sound of his feet on the grit of the road, all set him quickly at ease. Soon, the cottage was out of site, and nearly out of mind.
Almost immediately another chimney presented itself through the trees. Lewis noticed that this next cottage looked remarkably like the one he had just left. The same color, similar picket fence. Similar roses growing on the fence. The similarity included the very unusual blue roses.
Lewis was not entirely surprised to find Thomas Ross standing at the gate.
“Is that offer of tea still open, Mr. Ross?” asked Lewis.
“Absolutely ” Thomas Ross replied. “And please, call me Tom.”
Tom ushered Lewis into the house, and into a very cozy kitchen.
Lewis was very glad to sit down. Standing had become difficult. As he sat by the table, Tom went busily about the preparations for their tea. Once again the image of that sagacious character from Middle Earth came to mind, though Lewis still could not quite say just why.
Finally, tea was ready and on the table. Tom sat down and began to pour.
“Mr. Ross.” Said Lewis. “Tom. Just what happened back there?”
Tom took a sip of his tea. He added a bit of lemon, and then looked long at Lewis.
“What do you last recall, before you came here, Lewis?” he asked.
“Just being at home. Last night. I was troubled a bit by indigestion, and it caused me to sleep poorly.” Replied Lewis. “But what does that have to do with what happened just now?”
“That may come clear in a moment.” Said Tom. “What is the first think you recall this morning?”
“Walking down this road. Being amazed by the wonder of the day.” Said Lewis.
“You don’t recall getting up? Preparing for the day? Setting out on the journey that brought you here?” Tom inquired.
“No. But then, when I first lost my wife, I often came to myself, far from home.” Lewis said. “ I could not always recall what brought me there. So, today was not especially peculiar in that respect.”
Tom nodded. “Yes, I can see that those were hard days for you.”
Lewis took a sip of his tea. He, too, added a bit of lemon. He took another sip, and then waited on his host.
“This place is a bit of a way station.” Said Tom. “Not all roads are easy, nor are all transitions. This is a house between.”
Lewis sat, and waited a bit more.
“There is no going back, Lewis.” Tom continued. “But, unless you are ready, there is not yet a going forward. I have not been ready to go forward for some time, but now I am. At least, I think I am.”
No going back. Slowly, it was dawning on Lewis what it was that this house existed between. He put down his teacup, and sat back.
“Lewis, please come with me into the next room.”
Lewis stood, and quietly followed his host through the doorway.
The room was most unusual. The walls and ceiling were hung with fantastic tapestries. The floor covered by exquisite rugs of intricate design. Every surface seemed to tell a tale in threads of various hues.
Around the room were pedestals, upon which were some interesting objects. One contained a wax tablet and stylus. Another a stone tablet, and tools to work the runes. Each one had some kind of recording device. Near a desk sat the last two in the series. One held a parchment and quill pen. On the other was an ancient manual typewriter with a sheet of paper on the platen.
On the desk was a computer. The monitor was on, and a blank page was displayed.
“Please, sit at the desk, Lewis.” Said Tom. Lewis did so. Tom sat down in a chair that had been placed near the desk.
“I have sat in that chair on so many occasions. So many tales I have recorded there.” Tom said. He sighed. “So many tales.”
Lewis waited. He remained confused, but a strange quiet was settling on him. A sense of rightness. Not quite destiny, but purpose.
“Will you record my tale?” Tom asked.
“Yes, I will.” Said Lewis. He placed his fingers on the keyboard. Though he had never been much of a typist, he felt ready.
Tom began to speak, and Lewis began to write.
When it was done, and Lewis had saved the document, they both stood up. The passage of time seemed not to have affected them, for they both seemed refreshed. Silently, Tom led his guest from the room.
Tom went to a closet near the front door. From it he withdrew a fishing vest, festooned with tied flies. He put this on, and then withdrew from the closet a very fine fly rod. He settled a very comfortable looking hat on his head, sturdy but very old.
“Well, time to give it a try.” He said, and opened the door. Lewis followed him out to the road.
Lewis stood by him, as they both gazed longingly down the road. The day was still bright, still astounding. Rich with life and promise.
He said no more. He shook Lewis’ hand, and then turned and walked away.
Lewis stood in the middle of the road, and watched as Thomas Ross walked out of sight. He waited a time, but he did not hear any footsteps coming up behind him.
“A bit of a way station.” He said, aloud. “A house between.”
He stood a bit longer.
“Some are not yet ready.” He said. With a sigh, he walked back into the house.
Friday, July 13, 2007
A little distance-
I wrote "The Mind Bug" over a decade ago. I even submitted it for publication in a suitable monthly magazine. I believe that this was my first rejection slip. I was not discouraged by the rejection, but by the enormous competition for space for short stories. The compensation was not sufficient for the effort, at a time in my life when most of my waking hours had to be assigned to getting a reliable income.
So, into the drawer it went. When I finally pulled it out, just a few weeks ago, I realized that my rejection slip was well earned. I pruned and shaped, and reduced the bulk of the writing by about 60%. I think it turned out much better.
Now, it is published. Perhaps not as I had imagined it would be, but in a fashion that is exciting and new.
Hope you like it. Comments are welcome.
So, into the drawer it went. When I finally pulled it out, just a few weeks ago, I realized that my rejection slip was well earned. I pruned and shaped, and reduced the bulk of the writing by about 60%. I think it turned out much better.
Now, it is published. Perhaps not as I had imagined it would be, but in a fashion that is exciting and new.
Hope you like it. Comments are welcome.
The Mind Bug
The Mind Bug
A short story by Michael R. Lockridge
My name is Waldo Zimmermann. Lieutenant Hinson, of the Winston City Police Department, has instructed me to put down in my own words just how I killed Professor James Downey.
I am sure that Officer Hinson thinks I am a genuine crackpot. He told me that he had investigated the scene of Downey’s death, and though the final ruling has not come in, it was a very clear case of suicide. I admit that it is quite true that Downey put the gun to his own head, and equally true that he pulled the trigger. He painted the wall of his study with his brains, and I can’t imagine a better use for them.
I must, however, insist that it was I who killed him.
Please forgive me for the considerable self-analysis on my part. It will be pertinent to this confession. I must prove that I had the motive, the ability, and the opportunity to kill the recently departed Professor. To do so I will necessarily have to delve into the state of my own mind. Indeed, the state of my mind is quite critical.
I am a professor of physics in our own dear Winston State College. I have been a lifelong academician, and am first to admit that my whole life has been limited to school campuses. I am, and always will be, an egghead. An instructor of eggheads in an egghead community.
Let me be honest in assessing myself. I am a short, fat, and balding middle-aged man. I think the outward person simply developed to reflect what I was on the inside. As such, I have never known a woman’s touch. Excluding, of course, one rather traumatic experience at a faculty party some years ago.
I have never been successful with women. I learned to content myself with experiencing them from a distance. I have had to rely on my imagination, with little hope for any reality. In a few words, I have always been sexually repressed.
To be quite honest, I had not really considered this a problem until two years ago. That was when James Downey came to our campus. We ended up sharing a rather small office, and I knew it would be a rather rough relationship from the very beginning.
Where should I begin? Downey had a far too athletic build for a professor of modern literature and creative writing. And what was a professor from the school of the humanities doing sharing an office with me, anyway?
He played a mean game of tennis. Much too physical for me, at any age. He was three years older than myself! And he could play chess! He hardly ever played, but the few times we did I learned that my title on campus was in danger.
Added to all of this was that perpetual tan of his. Artificial? Of course, but still he glowed like some kind of Greek god. Contrasted with his billowing white hair, never out of place, he looked glorious!
His voice was deep and authoritative. He always had the right words to say. Whether addressing a first year student or the loftiest assembly of dignitaries, he always had the right words. Perfect presentation. Everyone loved to listen to him. I loved to listen to him, and I hated him from the very beginning.
Clothes! Whatever I tried to wear, I looked like a walk-on player in a second rate local theater production. He was always properly attired, in the best clothes available in our humble community. How a man living on his salary could afford to dress like he did I shall never know.
Too bad the casket had to be closed. Everyone at the funeral would have been impressed by how well he was dressed!
I could have forgiven the man all of this, but for one thing. Samantha Downey, his wife.
I may have always been sexually repressed, but that does not mean that I never noticed women. I have always liked women. I just could never find my stride with them. Tongue-tied and two left feet. No skills. None.
Samantha. Never before had I experienced the presence of such a woman! She seemed to have been sculpted from the most sensual of flesh. She was full of the fire of life, filled with passions I could not even imagine. Her sensuality was essential. It was her nature. It may never have been innocent, but it was honest.
I felt a fire deep inside myself the first time I met her. It grew every time I saw her. I learned her schedule, just so that I could chance to meet her once in a while. My own schedule shifted to insure I would see her at least several times a week. I felt I would die if I did not get at least a glimpse now and then.
Obsessed. I knew it, and I didn’t care. I had to have her!
But how? I knew that I had no chance of winning her. Impossible! What to do?
I capitalized on my strengths. Months I thought and worked and theorized and experimented. Nanotechnology was my answer. Sub-microscopic robots.
Great wealth could have been mine with the nanobots I created. I sought a greater prize. If I could not have Samantha directly, I would tap the memories and experiences of the man who had her. The nanobots were just a means to that end.
I introduced the nanobots into my associate’s body through his coffee. Several doses of the right proteins, along with a chemical programming code. They came together inside his body and assembled themselves. They then reproduced, and began assembling what I called “The Mind Bug.”
My own nanobots I injected into myself. No need for subterfuge. Since I was going through a similar experience, I could gauge what was going on in his body. If I felt cravings for particular foods, I made sure they were available for him, as well. The cravings indicated minerals being depleted by the nanobots scavenging components from our bodies.
His being an athlete did work to my advantage in this. A real danger was an imbalance in electrolytes. Athletes consume fluids designed to meet this particular need. By stocking our office with these beverages, I insured that both of us would survive the process of assembling the Mind Bugs.
Downey and I became ill around the same time. We weren’t able to come to work for a couple of days. It did not seem peculiar, since we shared an office. We obviously had been exposed to the same “bug.” Yes, a bad pun, but applicable.
Once I was over the worst of the illness, I tested my connection with my computer. I had built up the system to handle a network with two human minds. As it was, I had to come up with a few tricks. Any one of those would make me wealthy, even without the technology of the Mind Bug. Again, that was not my goal.
By the time we were back in the office I had a constant link to my computer’s Mind Bug network. It took some time to learn to navigate another man’s mind, I must say. Minds are nothing like I thought they were, before I started this experiment.
Eventually I was able to tap into the memories and experiences I had longed for. Oh, Samantha! She was more glorious than I had ever imagined! I won’t spoil my experience by relating details. The experience was very satisfying, and worth the effort.
Those were the early experiences, when the two were really in love. However, the narcissism of Professor Downey poisoned a beautiful relationship. She couldn’t love him as he loved himself! He grew dissatisfied, and abusive.
That self-involved man was beating my precious Samantha! There seemed nothing I could do.
Then I recalled that our minds were connected through the Mind Bug! Could I do it? Could I use it to drive him mad? I had to try!
I resolved to destroy his sleep. I used the computer to insure that his sleep would never be deep enough for his mind to recharge and regenerate. I separated myself from this part of the loop, since I did not wish to go mad along with him. I had acquired the memories of my dear Samantha, and more. I now knew her well enough that I experienced some vague hope that I could win her.
After Professor Downey killed himself due to an intense depressive episode, I intended to befriend his widow, and win her!
It seemed so workable.
Downey spiraled down into the depths of depression. He experienced delusions. Twice he hallucinated. I know, for I monitored his decline with maniacal attention. I was in his mind when he was home, alone. I was in his mind when he got out that old revolver he had prized for so many years. I was in his mind when he placed it to his head!
Alas, I was also in his mind when Samantha walked in on him. He was not alone, as he had thought. As I had thought.
There was no hesitation. No shouting, no arguments. He just leveled the gun and shot my dear Samantha! A bullet now broke the heart he had broken. Then another followed. And yet another. Then one for himself.
So, Lieutenant Hinson, I killed James Downey. With his hand, I also killed the only woman I had ever loved.
My fate is in your hands, Lieutenant. Can you make this case? Will you? I don’t really care. I have my memories, even though I had to steal them. If you want me, I will be at home. At home, endlessly strolling down memory lane.
A short story by Michael R. Lockridge
My name is Waldo Zimmermann. Lieutenant Hinson, of the Winston City Police Department, has instructed me to put down in my own words just how I killed Professor James Downey.
I am sure that Officer Hinson thinks I am a genuine crackpot. He told me that he had investigated the scene of Downey’s death, and though the final ruling has not come in, it was a very clear case of suicide. I admit that it is quite true that Downey put the gun to his own head, and equally true that he pulled the trigger. He painted the wall of his study with his brains, and I can’t imagine a better use for them.
I must, however, insist that it was I who killed him.
Please forgive me for the considerable self-analysis on my part. It will be pertinent to this confession. I must prove that I had the motive, the ability, and the opportunity to kill the recently departed Professor. To do so I will necessarily have to delve into the state of my own mind. Indeed, the state of my mind is quite critical.
I am a professor of physics in our own dear Winston State College. I have been a lifelong academician, and am first to admit that my whole life has been limited to school campuses. I am, and always will be, an egghead. An instructor of eggheads in an egghead community.
Let me be honest in assessing myself. I am a short, fat, and balding middle-aged man. I think the outward person simply developed to reflect what I was on the inside. As such, I have never known a woman’s touch. Excluding, of course, one rather traumatic experience at a faculty party some years ago.
I have never been successful with women. I learned to content myself with experiencing them from a distance. I have had to rely on my imagination, with little hope for any reality. In a few words, I have always been sexually repressed.
To be quite honest, I had not really considered this a problem until two years ago. That was when James Downey came to our campus. We ended up sharing a rather small office, and I knew it would be a rather rough relationship from the very beginning.
Where should I begin? Downey had a far too athletic build for a professor of modern literature and creative writing. And what was a professor from the school of the humanities doing sharing an office with me, anyway?
He played a mean game of tennis. Much too physical for me, at any age. He was three years older than myself! And he could play chess! He hardly ever played, but the few times we did I learned that my title on campus was in danger.
Added to all of this was that perpetual tan of his. Artificial? Of course, but still he glowed like some kind of Greek god. Contrasted with his billowing white hair, never out of place, he looked glorious!
His voice was deep and authoritative. He always had the right words to say. Whether addressing a first year student or the loftiest assembly of dignitaries, he always had the right words. Perfect presentation. Everyone loved to listen to him. I loved to listen to him, and I hated him from the very beginning.
Clothes! Whatever I tried to wear, I looked like a walk-on player in a second rate local theater production. He was always properly attired, in the best clothes available in our humble community. How a man living on his salary could afford to dress like he did I shall never know.
Too bad the casket had to be closed. Everyone at the funeral would have been impressed by how well he was dressed!
I could have forgiven the man all of this, but for one thing. Samantha Downey, his wife.
I may have always been sexually repressed, but that does not mean that I never noticed women. I have always liked women. I just could never find my stride with them. Tongue-tied and two left feet. No skills. None.
Samantha. Never before had I experienced the presence of such a woman! She seemed to have been sculpted from the most sensual of flesh. She was full of the fire of life, filled with passions I could not even imagine. Her sensuality was essential. It was her nature. It may never have been innocent, but it was honest.
I felt a fire deep inside myself the first time I met her. It grew every time I saw her. I learned her schedule, just so that I could chance to meet her once in a while. My own schedule shifted to insure I would see her at least several times a week. I felt I would die if I did not get at least a glimpse now and then.
Obsessed. I knew it, and I didn’t care. I had to have her!
But how? I knew that I had no chance of winning her. Impossible! What to do?
I capitalized on my strengths. Months I thought and worked and theorized and experimented. Nanotechnology was my answer. Sub-microscopic robots.
Great wealth could have been mine with the nanobots I created. I sought a greater prize. If I could not have Samantha directly, I would tap the memories and experiences of the man who had her. The nanobots were just a means to that end.
I introduced the nanobots into my associate’s body through his coffee. Several doses of the right proteins, along with a chemical programming code. They came together inside his body and assembled themselves. They then reproduced, and began assembling what I called “The Mind Bug.”
My own nanobots I injected into myself. No need for subterfuge. Since I was going through a similar experience, I could gauge what was going on in his body. If I felt cravings for particular foods, I made sure they were available for him, as well. The cravings indicated minerals being depleted by the nanobots scavenging components from our bodies.
His being an athlete did work to my advantage in this. A real danger was an imbalance in electrolytes. Athletes consume fluids designed to meet this particular need. By stocking our office with these beverages, I insured that both of us would survive the process of assembling the Mind Bugs.
Downey and I became ill around the same time. We weren’t able to come to work for a couple of days. It did not seem peculiar, since we shared an office. We obviously had been exposed to the same “bug.” Yes, a bad pun, but applicable.
Once I was over the worst of the illness, I tested my connection with my computer. I had built up the system to handle a network with two human minds. As it was, I had to come up with a few tricks. Any one of those would make me wealthy, even without the technology of the Mind Bug. Again, that was not my goal.
By the time we were back in the office I had a constant link to my computer’s Mind Bug network. It took some time to learn to navigate another man’s mind, I must say. Minds are nothing like I thought they were, before I started this experiment.
Eventually I was able to tap into the memories and experiences I had longed for. Oh, Samantha! She was more glorious than I had ever imagined! I won’t spoil my experience by relating details. The experience was very satisfying, and worth the effort.
Those were the early experiences, when the two were really in love. However, the narcissism of Professor Downey poisoned a beautiful relationship. She couldn’t love him as he loved himself! He grew dissatisfied, and abusive.
That self-involved man was beating my precious Samantha! There seemed nothing I could do.
Then I recalled that our minds were connected through the Mind Bug! Could I do it? Could I use it to drive him mad? I had to try!
I resolved to destroy his sleep. I used the computer to insure that his sleep would never be deep enough for his mind to recharge and regenerate. I separated myself from this part of the loop, since I did not wish to go mad along with him. I had acquired the memories of my dear Samantha, and more. I now knew her well enough that I experienced some vague hope that I could win her.
After Professor Downey killed himself due to an intense depressive episode, I intended to befriend his widow, and win her!
It seemed so workable.
Downey spiraled down into the depths of depression. He experienced delusions. Twice he hallucinated. I know, for I monitored his decline with maniacal attention. I was in his mind when he was home, alone. I was in his mind when he got out that old revolver he had prized for so many years. I was in his mind when he placed it to his head!
Alas, I was also in his mind when Samantha walked in on him. He was not alone, as he had thought. As I had thought.
There was no hesitation. No shouting, no arguments. He just leveled the gun and shot my dear Samantha! A bullet now broke the heart he had broken. Then another followed. And yet another. Then one for himself.
So, Lieutenant Hinson, I killed James Downey. With his hand, I also killed the only woman I had ever loved.
My fate is in your hands, Lieutenant. Can you make this case? Will you? I don’t really care. I have my memories, even though I had to steal them. If you want me, I will be at home. At home, endlessly strolling down memory lane.
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